Monday, August 18, 2008

Post to Heaven

19th August 2008

Dear Lord,

The last time I wrote to you as far as I could remember was 8 years ago. I remember that I made the letter in one afternoon. I just came from the school empty-handed, troubled, and embattled. I had only 1,50o pesos in my hands and my tuition costs around 4,000 pesos. It was supposed to be my second semester, my first year in college. I had survived the past semester full of hope that the university would finally grant the subsidy I have requested. Unfortunately, it did not.

It was an afternoon. I am resolved to go back to the province to scour every possibility of getting additional money from whomever. I remember that I suggested then to You that my sister in Dagupan help me. I remember telling you that it seemed to me that it was the only possibility. But I came home just the same, empty-handed, troubled and embattled. I kept the letter, slipping it in between the pages of a dilapidated dictionary I left back in my Baguio apartment. It actually survived after so many years. My sister accidentally read it few years ago. She told me that she cried while reading it. It was also read by my little brother, Mark. He asked me later if he could do the same. I told him that yes he could write to You whenever he wants to tell You things he would rather keep to himself.

When I tell my friends now that You work in mysterious ways, I remember the things that happened after I wrote that letter.

The day after I arrived in the province, people from the Student assistance Department at the University surprisingly visited and did some interview. The head, Manang Pen Facunla offered assistance right away without any solicitation and told me to go back to Baguio. She would later be You, dear Lord, supporting me all the way until I graduated. She gave me a job, private scholarship. Without her, there seemed to be no silver lining.

As I look back, I wonder if that letter was not written at all. Would You have performed a miracle just the same? I recently bought a handy Bible. A friend reintroduced me to You. One of my favorite passages is Ephesians 3:20. It speaks a lot about what happened. You spoke that You will do far more than we would ever dare to ask or even dream of; infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts or hope.

I am writing on a used paper. I hope You don't mind. I felt the conviction to write again to You about a plea coming from my heart. Few days from now, I will take the Bar exams. The greatest challenge so far and a key to what will I become years from now. Dear Lord, I wouldn't have reached this far without You lifting and carrying me everytime I falter down the road of life. You blessed and showered me your graces more than what I deserve. You gave me this flat with me effortlessly cashing out money. You gave me true friends who supported me up to the Bar review. You gave me a mother who specially sent me a smile from far away just to remind me that there are millions of reasons to pursue this dream and to take the challenge with a mighty heart.I couldn't ask for more.

Thank you Lord. while I continue to hurt You every now and then, please understand that I will always be your Son who always searched and yearned for You at the end of the day.

And while the days are closing in, I want to tell You that I will remember to walk the path You have opened and showed me.

The letter I once wrote was made yellowish by time, moisture has blotted the blue ink. But still it remains Lord and so is your unconditional love and my enduring faith.

Your son

11 comments:

pusa said...

having goosebumps while reading your entry, yes God moves in mysterious ways.. good luck in your bar exam

Anonymous said...

Dear One,
Pusa had goosebumps and I too, along with tears in my eyes. God in His wisdom provided you with your wonderful benefactor, Manang Pen Facunla, a true angel in your life.....as you are in mine.
Always,
Mom
:)

Mugen said...

I am most certain that your letter has been received. Wish you all the best in your bar exams.

Anonymous said...

fantastic, faith-affirming story. xxx andrea

blazing sunset said...

I was so blessed with your prayer. I believe God honors the prayer of the believers and faithful.

God keeps His promises.
God answers prayers.
God will remain God whatever happens.

Kuya, I hope you will remain faithful to the Lord, whatever happens.

Lifting you up in prayers,
Mariel

the warrior lawyer said...

Good luck in the bar exams. Take it easy, one Sunday at a time. Get enough rest,try to take time to relax, eat well. You'll see, it's never as hard as you anticipate. Your prayers will be heard. Although you'll probably be praying fervently all the way to March or April, with the obligatory trips to Manaoag etc. All part of the experience. Enjoy the ride since, in your case, I truly believe you'll be going through it only once.

B said...

uplifting!

God is indeed sovereign and good.

Cheryl Daytec said...

Read James 1:5.

May God bless you as you prepare for the bar exam.

melai said...

This is very touching... I remember my own letter to the Lord which I post in my blog.. I don't write in a paper for I am having a hard time thinking of what I really want, my hand is not good in writing at all also, holding a pen makes my hand hurt. Maybe, I made the Lord sad when I told him that I cannot write at all but I know I made him happy with that letter that HE gave me what I wished for that time....OUR LORD NEVE FAILS REALLY and I know HE WILL GRANT YOUR ANOTHER WISH...CONGRATULATIONS IN ADVANCE

iDa said...

care to x-link? hope we get connected :D

ross said...

Keep your faith always!

Goodluck on your exams...